Control

     Control is an illusion. We never really have it- the Earth makes a slight spin and things change.
     People seek controlling big amounts of money, of information, controlling other people, but we can't actually entirely control ourselves- how can we control other things and other people?
     It's a very familiar feeling to want someone to say something to you or to behave in a certain way, but you  can't make it happen. It's sad, but it is also interesting, because it comes  by surprise every time it somehow happens...
     It wouldn't be so nice when somebody would ask you to go out on a date, or would invite you to a tournament, or would simply tell you how great you are if it's you who made them do or say it. It's charming to never know what to expect from the others. It makes life thrilling. The thing is that surprises can  be tiring and too challenging sometimes...
     There are moments when I wish I could just go to a mountain chalet for a week and have nothing to keep under control but myself.
     All in all, there are things that don't depend on us and we can't blame ourselves for losing the touch from times to times.
     Life is unpredictable, people are unpredictable.
     You never know what waits for you tomorrow...