No prize, a couple of rating points which cowardly deserted,
a grey hair I had discovered on a glorious morning. If only it was the first
one! Some extra blisters from the miles I walked while having the time of my
life playing chess and… well, nothing else, except maybe eating – when not
playing for 5 hours in the morning round and, at times, sleeping- when not
playing for 10 hours a day; What else was there? Some photos which make my
unequalled beauty no justice, some games which mostly aligned with the general
trend… To summarize it in one word- shit. Pardon my French, but why not call
things exactly what they are?
Afterall, there is a special kind of beauty in the ugly. I
seem to recall some Charles Baudelaire writing emphasizing this idea. I assume
he must have come to this conclusion somewhere in his thirties. I have only
joined this club recently and have already started to appreciate the
enchantment of those moments when shit hits the fan, but you still feel
fabulous. If you don’t understand how come, you’re either too young to know-
but don’t worry- the fan is patiently waiting for you, or too old and no longer
need to apologize for any French knowledge.
Let me explain you this concept. You wake up at 7am in the
morning, try to understand why the need to function at this hour, remember
there’s a chess game in 2 hours and with great enthusiasm you get out of the
bed. While walking to the bathroom you feel some back pain from all those hours
spent sitting at the board- at least one only needs the brain to function properly for
playing chess… While brushing your teeth, you try to remember whom you’re
playing and what you’ve prepared. The great effort involved makes you realize
there’s an imminent threat of a headache approaching so you abandon the
dangerous endeavour.
You put on some clothes and go to breakfast. While in the
elevator, you see yourself in the mirror and realize you forgot there was one
in the bathroom too. Consequently, looking like shit comes as a mild surprise.
No problem- thirties have their perks too- by now you’ve learned about the
inner world and inner beauty, and you know- the appeal of those things one
can’t see. So, you confidently walk to the coffee machine. Two espressos later,
you’re reminded that caffeine on empty stomach is something you should have
learned to avoid by now. But you’re still not used to avoiding all the twenties
mistakes. Walking to the playing hall you feel your toes hurting from the
beautiful 3 kg boots you’ve chosen to take with you as the only pair of shoes. Shit.
All these sacrifices and for what? Even the 50 years old elevator mirror can’t
be convinced. I remind myself of the inner beauty and sing “These boots are
made for walking…”. There must be a concept of inner comfort too.
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You arrive at the playing hall 5 minutes late, make your way through the thousands of people and sit at the board. Move 3 of your opponent comes as a surprise you’re grateful for. Preparation headaches successfully avoided. Four moves later you realize you’re playing a line you wrote a course about but have successfully avoided making the move you extensively analysed. Merde! You sacrifice a pawn to stir things up and as compensation get an endgame with a bad knight vs a good bishop. Suffering like a dog is something you’re quite experienced at so you finally save a draw vs the 200 points lower rated opponent. At least there’s still time for lunch- a whole hour before the next game!
Salad for lunch is something you have made acquaintance with in your newly joined 30s club too. You eat one leaf after another, there’s neither any particular taste to it, nor any satisfaction. No need for it anyway- as you’ve understood by now, there are plenty of other things to enjoy in life.
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Back to the playing hall you find a maximum 10 yo looking
kid sitting across the board. Shit.
Luckily, the 30s club is a place where experience is at its
home. You have had your share of games you lost against children, and you make
sure not to enrich it. For a change, there’s no need for using my French
knowledge.
The afternoon is early, and you contemplate the possibility
of going for a walk. “No. No. No.” Toes, back, stomach- all in agreement. You
go back to your room, lie in the bed and appreciate the moment.
That’s how a regular day at Grenke looked like. Judging by
the amount of “French” I used, one might think I’m not so thrilled about the
overall experience. But, let me finish with a quote from Baudelaire: “What can
an eternity of damnation matter to someone who has felt, if only for one
second, the infinity of delight?”
