The blog of Irina Bulmaga

I lost unfortunately. I had very good chances- receiving a nice position after the opening, but I got too optimistic afterwards and sacrificied a pawn- which didn't lead to anything good. You can see my game here:

Here are some photos I took today, during my morning walk through the rainy Legnica:

Grigoryan Avetik and Danielian Elina of Armenia also taking a walk

"Welcome to the Hotel California/ Such a lovely place..." Well, it's actually "Kamieniczka"- but lovely anyways :P

I play against a lower rated player today, again from Czech Republic- Pavlicek Miroslav (2014). I hope to have a good game and to win :)

Will keep you posted!

xoxo from Legnica!

Sunday, 5 May 2013

Legnica

It is a very nice day. Unlike in Romania, where the summer has already stated it's rights, the reigning queen in Poland is spring.
The atmosphere is really nice here- the hotel where I'm staying is small and cosy, surrounded by beautiful parks. Everything is just perfect for chess- no worries, no stress, beautiful weather and nature. All I need is to focus and try my best during the games, which I surely intend to do.
Here you can see some views from Legnica:

I have black against Hracek Zbynek today- a GM (2628) from the Czech Republic. I hope to have a good game!
You can follow the pairings and the results here: http://chess-results.com/tnr95789.aspx?art=2&rd=1&lan=11&flag=30&wi=821

Keep your fingers crossed for me!

xoxo from Legnica!

Friday, 3 May 2013

Soul's Scream

Emptiness- undoubtable, profound emptiness.
Feeling so empty that you'd wish you could just fall asleep forever and you'd never feel so bare-souled again.
You stare at yourself in the mirror and you see nothing but an emotionless face- a common face that doesn't tell you anything.
God left me this face- He made it to be happy; He made my eyes to see Him; He made my ears to hear His call; He lended me a soul-a map to find my path to Him one day... My steps should have brought me to Him, but I lost my map on the way and I'm just a rambling self now.
There's a map somewhere in one's hands and he can't read it because it's not his own one- it's a map he received as a reward and wanting it too much it turned into a curse. Reading the map had become an obsession to him and when he thought he knew the key- the map turned against him- it didn't want to be read anymore; the treasure he thought he'd find was lost for him forever. A flame appeared from nowhere and it burned the map he was holding in his hands.
He's got nothing but ashes- ashes that he'll never be able to wash from his hands. They're invisible, but once you'd touch the skin on his hand- your own one will become grey- a grey which will follow him forever because it simply wasn't in his power to find they key to a map.

Thursday, 2 May 2013

Sweet Emotion

There's this feeling I get every time right before a tournament. I am excited and worried in the same time. I hope that it will be a good tournament for me and in the same time, I'm afraid it could go wrong. This feeling usually lasts until I make the 1st move and then everything goes away.
I will travel to Bucharest tomorrow night and then, I'll have a flight to Berlin, where the organizers will pick us and take to Legnica. The 1st round is on the 5th of May.
There are a lot of Romanians playing in the European Individual Championship (12):

21 GM NISIPEANU Liviu-Dieter ROU 2679
54 GM LUPULESCU Constantin ROU 2634
103 GM PARLIGRAS Mircea-Emilian ROU 2570
113 GM JIANU Vlad-Cristian ROU 2555
144 IM ARDELEAN George-Catalin ROU 2510
181 IM ANTON Teodor ROU 2441
205 WGM BULMAGA Irina ROU 2393
208 IM MANEA Alexandru ROU 2389
218 IM PETRISOR Adrian-Marian ROU 2378
226 FM POSEDARU Bogdan ROU 2339
227 STANCIU Alexandru-Ovidiu ROU 2335
267 DEAC Bogdan-Daniel ROU 2183

I can't wait for the tournament to begin! It's going to be the toughest event I'll take part at this year. I am nr. 205 from 298! You can see the starting ranking list here: http://chess-results.com/tnr95789.aspx?art=0&lan=11&fedb=ROU&flag=30&wi=821&zeilen=99999

Will keep you posted!

Tuesday, 30 April 2013

Freedom

FREEDOM, FREEdom
What is it- an undertaken right or an unconscious burden?
Many say that the most important thing for a human being to have is freedom. I think that freedom is nothing if not knowing what to do with it. Who cares that you're free to have an opinion if you don't ever say which is it; who cares that you're free to choose your company if you hang out with people whom you hate but you need them for some reason; who cares that you're free to love if you never do it. Who cares???
We pretend that we're free-we are people who can do whatever we want in the limits of the law. What kind of law am I talking about? Every other man has his own extra 300 laws.
Freedom is such a burden to some people... "If only I didn't have to choose- it would be so much easier". No one made you choose anything- we're not living in socialism anymore- you choose whether you're mojo's bitch or not. Easy.
One never values freedom until he loses it. Actually, it's good to be able to lose your freedom- it means that you had it at some point.

Monday, 29 April 2013

Last Resort

Have you ever used chess as the last resort of getting better?

It is an interesting thing- when something goes wrong and I am down I always use chess in order to get back to normal. When it seems that nothing can make me feel better- I lose myself in chess and it always saves me. One can get hope when practicing chess. When it seems that there's nothing more to lose- one can just focus all his energy on chess.

Instead of going to bed pitying myself and worrying about the following day- I practice chess until my mind gets so exhausted that I can't think about anything and I just crash. When I wake up the next morning I feel better because I know that I can practice chess again not carrying about anything else.

It is a good thing to be able to use chess as a resort of saving yourself and I am so happy that I've got it.

Saturday, 27 April 2013

9 Months

I was wondering today how is that to have a child.
When a woman spends 9 months of her life carrying a baby under her heart- what kind of love must she feel? It should be something very deep. Well, everyone knows that there's a strong connection between the mother and her child, but I started to think how special it must be only now. Why now? Because I've started to wonder how much love is there to give. How much love can one give during his life? Doesn't he run short of it at some point?
If one can give so much love, I guess that it means that he can also take the same amount of sorrow. There should be a balance. The more you give- the more you get. There's unfortunately no filter to what you get- it can be either bad or good.
Giving more means exposing yourself more. You put so much out there that if you lose it- there might be nothing left for you and it is scary. Well, life is generally scary and if one would start to be afraid of getting hurt- he'll never get to grief other what or whom he lost but in the same time he'll never feel himself being integer- he'll never be so happy that he could feel that he can fly...
Real love inspires, gives you hope and it puts all you've got on a public bench. It's a really big risk- the only hope is that the right person would take a sit on the bench and that he'd take care of what you had put there...

The point is to choose very carefully the alley where you want to find a bench.