Gigantic Suitcase

     A great period will start for me soon, one which I can't wait to begin!
     I haven't played chess so much lately, my last tournament was somewhere in the middle of May... I was caught with lots of exams at University (don't mean to gloat- but I passed all of them and now-I'm officially in my last year of Uni  :D ).
     A difficult task is now to be solved- how to pack a suitcase for 2 months? :))) I will go to the EIWCC in Plovdiv on the 4th of July, then a little vacation in Greece, after that- Olympiad and Turkish League, and I will be back home in September :D  The difficult part about it is that the Olympiad will be held in Norway, Tromsø, where it's more an early spring than a real summer in August.
     I've really missed traveling non-stop and playing strong tournaments... I have missed my chess friends, I have missed the tournament atmosphere! I guess you can feel my enthusiasm about the forthcoming months :)
     All in all, I am very optimistic about everything and I am really thankful for the opportunity of having such an amazing life as a chess player!


xoxo from Chisinau ;)

Rise from Ashes

     The change never comes easy.
     If one wants to become a different man, he should rip the old him into pieces and throw them to garbage. You can't become a new man saving in the same time the old you.
     We are all like phoenixes, each of us is capable of rising from our own ashes. The point is that no one burns himself, usually someone does it for us and though we see this someone as the biggest enemy, "someone" makes us the most precious gift one can receive- the chance to reinvent ourselves.
     The most difficult part is that sometimes there's no "someone" to burn you and you should do it by yourself, you should commit a crime against yourself in order to find the "phoenix effect". It takes a great deal of humanity to commit a crime and it takes all your inner's World power to commit it against yourself. Making this step, there's no way back and when left with nothing but a burning desert, well, it just hurts like hell. The fire kills each little part of  you step by step and there's a not so short time until it burns it all- the ideas, the anger, the memories...
     All you can do when at this point is to wait, to wait until the last wire that links you to "the old you" is burned and then you are free to write a new story about a new man.
     While waiting, thought I could try to choose the quill with which I'll write the story of.... , I still don't know about whom that story will be, but I hope I will eventually find it out.


xoxo from Desert :)

Soul 2 Soul

     Today is a special day.
     Why? Because a very special person was born today.
     There are all kind of people one meets during his life but there are very few who touch your soul and earn a spot there. I am the lucky one who has met one.
     Happy Birthday, dear Roxana! May all your dreams come true and thank you for being such an amazing friend! :*

My dear friend, Roxana Anton

     xoxo from Iasi ;)

Bohemian Rhapsody

Today I would like to remember the sunny weekend I spent in Bucharest.
     I will not speak much about chess, as we took only the 3rd place, though the 1st one was expected from us. You can check the results here :http://chess-results.com/tnr135027.aspx?lan=1
     Instead, I will talk about the great time I had there :)

With my friends, Roxana Anton and Raluca Sgircea

     Bucharest has something special when summer. I like it's bohemian air, one can never feel weird on the streets of the Old Center. There's the place where I just enjoy being myself.
     I indulge myself with anything that crosses my mind when there: smoothies, ice-creams, "difficult to spell" names of coffees... and the smile never leaves my face ;)
     What I like about all these Romanian Club Championships is that all my friends gather and no matter of "who beats who" we go for a coffee afterwards :))

 

     xoxo from Chisinau ;)

A little faith

     Another rainy day has come with some inspiration for a new post.
     Unlike one must think, it's not another sad text, it is an optimistic one today :)

     As you might have seen, I played an Open in Iasi, in the city where I live the most part of the time. It was a very nice tournament, one which I hope will become traditional.

     The tournament started very well for me, with 3/3p, beating a 2530 GM in the 3rd round and with a totally winning position in the 4th game, with me having black against a strong GM. Unfortunately I lost that game, I guess I felt the victory to close and it made me play some unexplainable moves... All in all, the tournament went pretty good for me, I won some Elo points and I had some very nice time.You can find the final standings here: http://chess-results.com/tnr123153.aspx?lan=1&art=1&rd=9&wi=821
     Iasi has changed a lot in the last few years. It has become a very beautiful city, with lots of nice places. It felt very good to be "the host" and to show my friends my favorite places.

 
     As about what's next, I will play the Romanian Rapid Club Cup in the upcoming weekend. Until then, I am quite caught up with all kind of projects I have to make at University.
      I will not play any tournaments until July, when I'm going to participate at the European Individual Women Championship, in Plovdiv.
      As about June, it is going to be a month full of exams for me, but I am quite optimistic about them ;)
      I don't know if it's about the summer coming closer and closer, or about something else, but I have started to
look to the future with more confidence and the things have started to get better. All I could complain about some weeks ago is not such a big deal now.
     I guess that "good always wins", just have a little faith.

 xoxo from Iasi ;)

Private Investigations

     Today is a day like any other and yet I felt like sharing some thoughts with you.
      I am 20 yo but I feel like I'm soon to go on pension. It sounds funny when I reread it, but it's a sad smile that it brings on my face.
     Life is joyful, fun, speedy and with no worries when in 20's- at least that's what they all say. So why doesn't it feel like this then? The answer is simple "You've got problems in your head, girl". Do I? Maybe...
     I just wish to remember how is that to be young, that's all.
     I want to make stupid mistakes and to laugh about them the next day and I want to feel happy about stupid things like a new, fantastic cake I've tried or because of a super hot pair of shoes or about an exam I've passed, or a nice game I won, or maybe a cool date I've been on. Well, as depressing as it may sound, I don't feel any happiness about all those things, only sadness if they don't happen.
     What is this point I got to? I can't explain to myself, but I'm so tired of being sad, it's like I'm waiting for minutes, hours, days, years to pass faster so I could finally get a grave. So fuc*ing optimistic, right? Well, that's how it's been lately.
     Maybe it's a bad idea- this post, but it might be as well just another stupid thing to laugh about tomorrow, right?

"And what have you got at the end of the day?
What have you got to take away?
A bottle of whisky and a new set of lies
Blinds on the windows and a pain behind the eyes
Scarred for life - nocompensation
Private investigations."

Are you on diet?

     Life passes day by day and we forget that we live for being happy.
     Everyone should have this thing in mind. We want to earn money, to be successful, to be loved or to be powerful only because it could bring us happiness and this is what we should focus on.
     We get distracted by all kind of worries too often and it is not worth it. Health is not a currency and there are no goods that can be payed by it.
     In my way of becoming an economist I've discovered for myself that money is an entirely fictional value. It has only the value that we empower it with in our minds. It's a construct, an artificial intermediary between things we value.
     In my way of becoming happy I've discovered that health is not fictional and love,honesty, respect and kindness are a real thing, a currency that can be used to purchase real happiness.
     What has made you who you are- the goods that you have, the people you control, the things that you've achieved or the people you've made happy with it on this way?
     In my way of becoming an adult I've discovered that nothing has value in this life unless I give a "sh**" about it. So simple, right?
     The conclusion is simple- take care of your diet, because what you eat day by day turns into how much "sh**" you give on things.

p.s. I am sorry for the language used above- but important things should be said with simple words :)