Between Words

      A New Year is here, but there's pretty much time to speak about 2015.
     2014 was a very full year, one filled with many hopes, firsts, achievements and some disappointments as well. Chess has kept being the satellite of my planet Earth and there are no changes in the horizon. The more I play chess, the more I enjoy the chess lifestyle, with all the traveling, discovering new places and people. I keep ferreting different life aspects and I love seeing myself constantly changing. I don't know if it's what they call progress, but there are less and less wars I lead against myself. I've enjoyed being 20+, becoming independent and there are fewer and fewer "no's" I say to myself.

   2015 is the year of my graduation and I really hope that I'll never have to use my diploma. I don't want to live in a World where playing chess is just a hobby. Some friends told me that this year will be about freedom for me.
     Can't do anything about it but embrace it with my heart and mind opened!
 
     Have a Happy New Year and don't be afraid to say "Yes"!






xoxo from Chisinau ;)
    

Control

     Control is an illusion. We never really have it- the Earth makes a slight spin and things change.
     People seek controlling big amounts of money, of information, controlling other people, but we can't actually entirely control ourselves- how can we control other things and other people?
     It's a very familiar feeling to want someone to say something to you or to behave in a certain way, but you  can't make it happen. It's sad, but it is also interesting, because it comes  by surprise every time it somehow happens...
     It wouldn't be so nice when somebody would ask you to go out on a date, or would invite you to a tournament, or would simply tell you how great you are if it's you who made them do or say it. It's charming to never know what to expect from the others. It makes life thrilling. The thing is that surprises can  be tiring and too challenging sometimes...
     There are moments when I wish I could just go to a mountain chalet for a week and have nothing to keep under control but myself.
     All in all, there are things that don't depend on us and we can't blame ourselves for losing the touch from times to times.
     Life is unpredictable, people are unpredictable.
     You never know what waits for you tomorrow...