The island
is asleep, am I too? Is it a bad dream or is it the end of a chapter and the
beginning of another?
While
players are either celebrating or drowning their sorrows I’m trying to look
back on how it was when it’s not even really over…
It was most
certainly a very tough tournament but one where there were so many lessons to
be learned!
Lesson 1-
never make experiments in the first rounds! It is very important to have a good
start, as it boosts your confidence! A dull draw with the white pieces vs a
200p higher rated player is not a shame- it is a strategy! I started with be
black pieces in round 1 and decided to go for a complex and interesting
position rather than trying to exchange one piece after another… Was it correct,
was it not? The standings are probably the best judge…
Another
black in the 2nd round came as unexpected as it only could. Have
tried to prove myself that the lesson was learned and played some very solid
chess in order to keep the position equal up to around move 35 but just to
spoil it with 2 blunders in a row in the time trouble…
“Irina, pull
yourself together! All will be fine!”
A very much
awaited white in the 3rd round against yet another 2600+. “And what
should I do know?” Any sane professional would tell you to go for a draw after
2 loses in a row, but… I am a player- it is written in my DNA to believe in
myself and in my chess- why else would I come here? A big advantage after the
opening- doubted myself, made a few slow moves- a bad evaluation and… another
loss- the 3rd one in a row. That hurt a bit, or maybe even more,
though I made sure that the makeup would not show it to the World and to myself
either…
Not an easy
win against a lower rated player followed, but a win is a win.
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| (Photo by Maria Emelianova) |
White in
round 4 vs an opponent I lost to earlier this year- another 2600+. Played some
inspiring chess up to some point, when I lost my advantage and had to be very
resourceful in order to maintain the balance. Fought hard, he made a mistake
and I got again a big advantage- a totally risk free endgame. He offered a
draw. I believe that was the critical moment of the whole tournament. I had
reached the time control, got the 50 minutes- calculated, evaluated, realized
that I can play for 2 results… but again- I doubted myself… Thought about the
lunch I had skipped, the diner I would miss, the caffeine trembling hands, the temptation of the first
positive result vs a higher rated opponent and I just couldn’t make myself
continue. I was chicken- took the draw.
Lesson 2- A
bad plan is better than no plan at all! If you’ve got a strategy- follow it,
don’t change it, as it only creates confusion and eventually bad decisions will
arise… If you decide you’re in for big fights- fight until the end! If you want
to be chicken- be so from move 1 to 151, from round 1 to 11… You can not be
Jeanne d’Arc up until move 20 and then suddenly decide you’re afraid of fire…
The chicken who dreams is ought to be punished - another loss followed…
At least 6
rounds had already passed and a rest day was scheduled.
‘Chicken’
wanted to be Jeanne d’Arc so badly, still…
(To be
continued)
